I am BAAACK!
It’s been nearly two years since I made my exit from the world wide web. Thanks to my amazing staff and volunteers who are able to do all things technical for me as I am praying for my eyesight to be restored.
On December 10, 2016, eight days after my 36th birthday, I awoke without sight. I had been diagnosed in 2014 with Keratoconus. For a little over a year, I was wearing hybrid contacts to correct my sight and allow me to drive, read, you know all the things that make us a functional human.
The doctors tell me that my sight will eventually appear. They have no diagnosis outside of the Keratoconus. At this point, I am walking by faith, not by sight. It has been frustrating but if you know me then you know that I do not allow ANYTHING or ANYONE to stand in the way of my destiny. I am no longer able to drive so I have no drivers license and without assistance a number of things require help but that’s minor.
I have a mobility specialist who visits my home weekly to help me function in my home and community to continue being the advocate, author, and speaker that I have been for the last 15 years. It’s an adjustment but I know this is all a test so that God will receive the glory out of this.
I have met a number of people who ask me how am I able to smile after all that I had been through and going through, My answer is simple: No test, no testimony!
Back in 2007, after the passing of my Dad, I had felt as if I could not connect with the women who enter my organization‘s doors. I had no knowledge of the conditions and experience of what a homeless woman experience, a woman with children desperately praying, stressing and hoping to keep a roof over their child’s head have to overcome. Sitting in my office after writing a $500 personal check to a woman who needed her electricity and water bill paid I felt as if I had no words of comfort to give them because I had no experience as a person in need.
I do not personally feel that a person has to go through homelessness, blindness or financial loss to have compassion for another’s trials but I know it was the best experience that God could have taken me through.
It’s been an amazing journey. I know that may sound crazy but its the truth. It has not been easy but the knowledge, lessons, and empathy that I have gained have been the best for me.
I have to walk in my purpose. I am always telling people that I meet while I am out in the community that I may have lost my sight but I did not lose my vision. That will make sense to some and others will have to catch it later on.
God is still good! He has not failed me in all of my 37 years when I was a hot mess and now while I seek His face more than ever. He will get the glory! I will overcome and this too shall pass.